Always hard to make a Change, Just Like How to Stay The Same...A Self Contemplation

Always hard to make a change, just like how the stay the same...that was the first album title from Bandung-based Indonesian indie rock band called Vincent Vega. I don't know whether that phrase was originally made by themselves or it was just quoted from someone else's work which must be very famous in literary art but I don't know nothing about literary especially in English. If it was really made by them originally, I just can't imagine how non-native English speakers like me and them can contemplate in such way until find a phrase with a deep meaning and anagrammatic. Well, maybe I was wrong and they made that phrase by themselves. Maybe it's because I feel less confident lately especially regarding my English, thus it's hard for me to believe that a non-native English speakers can also use and produce good phrase of English well. I hope this 'self-underestimate syndrome' will be over soon for me.

On the other hand, that phrase reminds me that I am to lazy to make a change, a better change of course for example when I feel that I need a lot of practice to succeed in all these challenges I sometimes can't fulfil my own target of particular practice or exercise. Sometimes I wonder that is it a normal human behaviour that we are tend to be lazy or is it just me who can not motivate myself even though I already know the cost and benefit of particular thing like when I am doing this blog writing. I realize that this kind of writing exercise could help me boost my skill and sense of writing which I can use it in the future for both academic and professional purposes, but the reality is I can not do it regularly and it's been more than a week since the declaration to begin blog-writing in late September 2014. 

I know I am now struggling with this situation. Actually, it is not such a hard situation but I don't know why I feel there is something's not right yet I am now a post-graduate student of one of the best universities in the world, living in a big city, getting money without working in office hour, how could I ask for more? It's like living a dream of every school kids in my home town, even though I never dream this far before, honestly. By struggling with this kind of feeling, I am trying to do a new thing and against my own habit in order to get the right mood and succeed in all these challenges here eventually.

Let's just stop this melancholic feeling and get back to daily with full of hope and cheerful. Anyway, the band Vincent Vega which I have mention before is one of my favourite bands but unfortunately they don't make more album since the first one, I hope I am wrong on this.